Your Desire

 

Nap Time

 I would love to spend the day being a little younger (ok a lot younger) something about it I just find appealing.

 

Outside Adventure

 I do have a thing about coats and do enjoy going outside dressed so this image is up my alley.

 

Unfortunate Choice

 I do love shiny clothes, satin works best but always loved the PVC look but so difficult to find something that looks as good on as it does in the pictures.

 

another view of this awsome dress!

Heels to die for

Before I get to the emotional part I have go to say that although wearing 5 inch stilettos is awesome and I love doing it and was getting quite good in them at SW but for 12 hours, 4 of which dancing, they are just not suitable. My feet were numb by the end and took weeks to get back to feeling normal (but my legs had a super workout and looked even more delightful). 

All these new places did bring something up that I had worried about and should have just talked to my girly group about and that was what about the toilets? Which do you use? what is the etiquette? Standing or sitting? At SW I am usually caged, so I sit and use the ladies or upstairs toilet, but in town? Turns out that there were a lot of gender neutral toilets and when I asked nobody cared which I used but I would hate to offend and scare anyone and more than capable of going into the gents dressed! My boots pre-glued nails stayed on all night (thats from 1pm to 4am) so I think I have got the hang of them. I have also learnt that a handbag with a chain strap stays on my shoulder better! Who knew!

Journey Beyond Central Station

Sometimes I think that I played my life all wrong, now that I understand what makes me happy I look back and see all that wasted time but maybe I was never that person so many years ago. I am me now and my younger self had different goals and desires. I have loved so many things that my life has brought me that I should never complain or regret my choices and as my life evolves then I should just enjoy every new development, experience and relationship.

Sounds like a load of psychological bull shit but let me assure you its written with a hand on my heart, if you enjoy reading these new chapters of my blog then that is great (and please let me know!) but its more therapy for me, its my diary and my opportunity to express how I feel and share my experience as I am unable to chat about such things in my circle of work and day to day friends.

So what is new you ask? Well in December my trips to Sweet Wednesdays (which I adore and has given me such joy) went to another level. I don’t mean in a sexual way but in a social way. I guess it was 2 things which rocked my world and sent my head spinning, the first was the opportunity to step outside of the walls of Central station and journey into the city to a new location. A journey with friends and loyal companion and in their company I could relax and let the fears of what might happen just fade into a quiet buzz in the background of my life. Travelling in the uber, walking to Retro then climbing the stairs to be looked upon by new faces and seeing those faces and realising I was not treated as unusual here, my difference makes me something special to discover and enjoy, not something that should be shunned or hidden away like a grotesque statue that nobody has any use for.

From the vibrant walls of Retro and the sweet conversations of people who do not draw lines between how we look or feel we travelled again, holding hands and quiet words calmed my soul as I watched the city lights dance by the windows of the cab. As we walked towards the place I had heard so much about, my partner in crime was just about bursting with energy and anticipation which made me excited yet worried that this new experience would not be the same for me, we all have different tastes but there is a joy gained from those around you enjoying themselves and if she was this happy bringing me here, sharing her experience, my only option would be to enjoy it!

And wow did I enjoy it, I felt young, crazy and bewildered. My brain had trouble processing everything around me, not helped by the various drinks we had consumed, the music so loud that it echoed inside my head, the lack of inhibitions in this environment just made me want to dance like nobody cared – which they did not, all they wanted is that everyone is happy. I love to people watch and this was a feast for the eyes, as I danced I scanned the room and tried to work out all the relationships between the couples, groups or solo attendees, my brain just could not accommodate the variety and wild characters of this club (Bombshells if you want to know). Such a happy and vibrant collection of souls.

That leads me onto the second event that changed my life in such a wonderful and beautiful way and that will have to wait for the next instalment…..

My New Life in Dresses

 As I spend more time (all my time?) in knickers and bras and every oppurtunity to wear either a skirt and blouse or a dress it wont be long until I will be wearing something like this every weekend!